Does advertizing work on me?

Does my media-deconstructionist attitude immunize me?
Don't want to work, don't want to play.
I'm not who I used to be, but I don't like the change.

Private Service Announcement.

How to reject a rejection letter.

Dear MicroCineFest,

Thank you for your letter of September 22nd. After careful consideration, I regret to inform you that I am unable to accept your refusal to accept my short films for your festival.

This year I have been particularly fortunate in receiving an unusually large number of rejection letters. With such a varied and promising field of candidates, it is simply impossible for me to accept all refusals.

Despite Mr. Cyzyk’s outstanding qualifications and previous experience in rejecting applicants, I find that your rejection does not meet my needs at this time. Therefore, I will be honored to have my films in your festival this November. I look forward to seeing you then.

Best of luck in rejecting future applicants.

Sincerely,

Max Friedenberg

You fell in love with a nut.

I love you more than can be expressed other than

by shining my love on you day after day after day after day after day…

then maybe you’ll understand how I feel about you and how

beautifully I have resolved to treat you day after day after day after day…

Every day that passes, you’ll understand more and more how I love you.

But how will I understand YOU, Dear?

I choose you, because I have no choice…Love did not give me that option.

I just got into trouble.

I spoke of Love as an entity. Capital “L”

Love has been summoned.

-Love here.

-Hey, Love, what’s up?

-Not, much. What’s up with you? Just kidding. I can tell what’s up, dumbass. I brought you two together. Want some advice?

-Ummmm, ok.

-Get a pen, stupid.

So Love told me how to treat you today.

A portion of the message from Love:

“Treat her like diamonds, gold and pearls.

Treat her like water, seeds and soil.

Treat her like flesh, wood and fire…”

Love went on and on in weird triplets.
And I wrote it all down.
I got a hand cramp.

Love can really go off. Did a little singing. Very emotional.

And then at the very end, Love told me, (and this is funny, because it really shows how Love has a weird way of doing things)
“Now forget all those things. Treat her beyond what all those tired metaphors deserve, respect and might accomplish.”

So I told Love:

“I can’t believe you made me write all that shit down, you bastard…that’s a creative exercise you got there. But seriously, I don’t know of anything precious enough to compare her to – and to then treat her like. The only thing she is like, is herself.”

Love laughed at me and said, “Wow. I remember when you told her that the first time. That’s pretty romantic. You really have it in you.Want a job? Just kidding. But now you understand, Max. Discover her. If she is like nothing or anyone else – find out who she is and then you’ll know how to treat her.”

I laughed and told Love, “What? Find out? Like today? Hello? Love? Love? You there?”

No answer. Love waits for no man. Or is that Time?

-Time here. What’s up?

-Can we talk later? I am trying to write a love-letter to her.

-Word. I’m pretty fucking busy ,too, as you can imagine.

-I think I can. I’ll call on you later. I have a lot of questions.

-Later. Later. Never before. Rarely now. A ha ha. Inside joke.. Rarely now…love that one. No, but, what is wrong with you people? There is way more Time before, than later. Why can’t we talk before?

-OOO. There’s more Time before, than later? That sounds bad. Are we in trouble?

-Read the papers? Bush? Global warming? Beyond that, ever heard of the the “big crunch”? Get with it. The expansion of the universe is NOT accelerating. Yah, it’s expanding, but it’s slowing down. I told Hawking that two years ago, he’s keeping it to himself. Bitter, secretive, man. Oh shit, that the time...again? Gotta go.

So I want to discover who you are, Ray- to truly understand you.

But now also, I understand why I want to understand you.

Because then I will know how to treat you and how to love you.
I suspect I will realize that I must treat you with Ultimate Understanding in order to to discover you.

It’s a bit of a loop.

-Ultimate Understanding here, sorry I’m late. I visiting a mental institution.

-Crap.

-What? You called on me.

-No I didn’t, I just wrote “Ultimate Understanding” in caps. I didn’t know you were even an entity!

-Well I am. Problem is, no one ever, really ultimately understands me. Except for, ahem, psychotic people. Or elightenend ones. Kinda depend on how you cope with the information. Ironic, no? By the way, did you buy UltimateUnderstanding.com last year?

-Yah. I was was pretty high at the time. Haven’t done anything with it. But now I have some ideas.

-I bet. Well, I want it.

-Too bad. Why don’t you buy it off me, hoss?

-I’m Ultimate Understanding, I don’t have money. Money is like poison to me. That’s part of ultimate understanding.

-I know.You’re fucked. Wait! Isn’t “ownership” antithetical to ultimate understanding too?? Why would you want to own domain name?

- I was testing you. Good work. Shit. We should talk more.

-Oh. Ok. I bet I could learn a lot from you. You’re pretty understanding, huh?

-I understand I’m understanding. You don’t have to tell me. In fact, I understand that you understand that I understand I’m understanding. And so on, forever, until you never get there and it turns out that you are understanding, or beginning to understand understanding just for understanding that very fact. But I will always be more understanding. I’m Ultimate Understanding…I can help you realize that…or come close. No one ever gets the cigar. Actually, there is no cigar. I already smoked it. If you ever reach ultimate understanding, you simply go insane or become enlightened. Either way way, it's ineffable. Kinda lonely, yet serene. Unless you just can't cope with it, then it's just lonely and completely terrifying. Tell you about it later, and how to achieve that peacefully horrific or horrifically peaceful place. . It has to do with nearly stopping T-i-m-e and having every single possible thought almost instantaneously. It's excruciatingly relaxing. But you realize what’s REALLY going on. Up to it?

-Not right now.

-I understand, but that's all the T-i-m-e you'll need.

If you think I am treating and loving you OK now, then I must have some understanding of you already.

OK?!
So my goal is ultimate understanding of you.
But I understand that is not possible, as you are a dynamic force that will forever change and grow.

There is who you were, who you are and who you are becoming.
Ultimately, you’ll never “ulti-mate” (I turned “ultimate” into a verb, there, and actually think it’s never been done before, so I am calling Oxford later)

I can only conclude:

I can’t arrive at ultimately understanding you, but I can approach it. Fine.
I can’t choose to discover you, as you discover yourself and as you discover how you, yourself, wish to be treated/loved. Love’s making me do it.

I can ask you to show me how to do that.
I feels really good to ask you to do that.
Will you show me?

And it’s the best feeling in the world, because I finally know something true:
I know something I can never tell you, and you know something you can never tell me.

Oh sure, you and I can say it all day long and write love letters and songs and paintings and try to “figure out” Love itself, and in some small way, by doing this, we show each other.
But really, I know something I can only ever show you by continually showing you.

It could take a while.
Have some Time?
Wanna see?

-Wanna here.

-YOU, wanna, are not an entity; “wanna” is turn of phrase. Short for “want to”.
It was capitalized because it was the first word in a fragmented sentence. Not a proper noun, like a name or place.
You are totally off base.

-Fine, I’m going back to watch Oprah.

-Oprah here. This is very expensive, you know, summoning me. This bold italicized will cost you. But, I brought you this Microwave…

-I didn't summon you, Oprah. Wanna did.

-I thought you said I wasn't an entity.-You summoned Oprah. You must be one now. Also she'll be billing you. I suggest you pay her. Otherwise, even though she is filthy rich, she'll sue.

- Time here. Sorry I was tardy. Had a meeting with Money. Turns out we are NOT related. It's a dirty paradigm. The meeting with space went very well. We are one and the same. It's just I do the talking. Space is just so, so, so, so... Spacey.

- Kevin, here. Who are you people? This is a shitty script. I'm going back to rehearsal. Oh, before I go: sorry about K-PAX. Big mistake, Jeff Bridges though...I mean, c'mon. Class act.

How we all fucked up the Superbowl again.

First off, I just realized that quantum mechanically speaking, if you watch the Superbowl, you'll affect it's outcome.
Unfortunately there's not much you can to do affect the outcome of the ads. They were pre-recorded, by those who, by recording them affected THEIR outcome.

So then how we know that the universe is not prerecorded? Some "show" we are but only watching? How do we know that we are participants and not just observers? Oh. Now I understand quantum mechanics. By observing we ARE participating. At the very least, just by tuning in we are either fucking everything up or setting it right. It's pretty hard to discover with out getting your muddy footprints all over the place.

But you can make quite an impression by thinking alone...too. And if you are observing yourself -- I don't mean staring into the mirror* -- if you are self-aware/sentient, then well, you are affecting your own, er, outcome. You are forced to choose your own path. Your trajectory through life and space-time itself.

So if you choose to observe the Superbowl it's because your life path lead you to affect it's outcome.

Did I type "the Superbowl"? Please replace those words with "an electron".

I'm starting to think that electrons and other fascinating particles lead Physicists to observe the very particles that that they themselves are elementally composed of. It's kind of like the universe CREATED scientists and thinkers to figure out what the universe is, but we can't because we are part of it too so we just can't see it from our catch-22 vantage point.

How to escape the loop? How to transcend in a finite (albeit, seemingly large) universe?
I submit the universe is not comprised of countless particles, but rather one particle moving so fast that it comprises all.

THE UNIVERSE IS MADE OF ONE PARTICLE MOVING AT THE SPEED OF NOW.

I feel a transcendence coming on. Later.

*if you stare into a mirror long enough it gets more difficult to discern which side of the mirror you are on.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Observer_effect

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The ratio of who you think you are compared to how you are perceived by self or others reflects your trueness. The ultimate fidelity ratio is 1:1. It's not achieveable by humans these days. Perhaps we ought to let down or dismiss our gaurds and masks and reveal ourselves universally. But then if you are transparent, who can see you you? Well, crap. This examination of suchness isn't going anywhere. ANYWAY; What might they --that are you-- learn from this question? What about this one? That I am out of your mind...or that I am out of yours? __________________________________________________________ Thank you for enjoying this thought experiment, or disliking it and/or coming to any conclusion* whatsoever after you will have run it through your cultural refractor or emotional prism -- even if it was for a moment it means you must have had a feeling that the sensation of the passage of time has to do with why we often experience one thought following another instead of some thoughts progressing from anything but a former one. The speed at which it feels to pass must have something to do with how many thoughts you experience in a certain amount of "time". The faster the process, the more "time" you have to observe the process. Like speeding up the frame rate to crate a slow-motion effect at baseline playback. Like getting really high and jumping out of a plane at 3 hours a minute. Or seven years a second...or... *If you came to no conclusions, yet perceived the site, it's because you are are still coming to one. If you NEVER come to one, it means you probably wrote this. If you did not perceive the site, well, then why the hell am I wasting my perception of time writing this? Fuck if I'm gonna go back and fix typos or forge an effort to prevent new ones, not EPECIALLY for anyone simply not reading this, but for those who have seen right through it. I mean, once you learn to read it's near impossible to NOT read something in your tongue. I'm not saying whole paragraphs but, you know, the occasional word. Try not to read signage. You can't! Stop. Yield. EXIT> IF YOU HAVE SCROLLED DOWN THIS FAR, AND YOU CAN READ ENGLISH, IT'S A CHALLENGE TO NOT READ THIS SENTENCE. But hopefully none of above will have been written. It's best not to arrive after you have left. The only thing I know about you is that you would like to be believed. Authenticated. Don't forget, if you're going to wax ontological, drink plenty of water! If you don't like water, have a Bildebier ok? Looking for High Mayhem?

If this is a trap, well then poison me too...

Coupons, like Kings, are for redemption.

THE BELOW ARE FUTURE TOPICS/HEADINGS FOR BLOGS. THIS IS NOT A BLOG PER SE. Well, it's a blog of possibly future blogs. Pardon the typos. I don't write it. I comes through me.

The Crew. A reality show about the crew that produces, directs shoots and edits a reality show. Except the crew doesn't know.

Shave patterns into my friend's living room carpet, with my Oster. Failing that, use oyster or an annoyster.

Solve the gravity wave problem with an insightful analogy between the compressions and rarefactions of air molecules to propagate the medium we call "sound". Weeeeeellll, perhaps the compressions and rarefactions of time ( and therefore, M and c) result in "gravity waves".
The waves may be beyond generations of collectible data. We must have memories of a thousand years or more to perceive one cycle of phase. Hence the mysteries of the universe may not be understood by one particular culture during one particular era. Including us earthlings. UNLESS....I seriously have something I can't tell you, but not because you can't understand this time. Should I die too soon, the answer is hidden in the High Mayhem logo.

Love is all give and no take.

Smart monkeys may be choosy about whom they fuck, go hunting with, share food with, communicate with and in all cases, when. Smart monkeys can look ahead. Smart monkeys devise...plan...anything. The formulations of possible futures, implies that probability is a consideration. If the odds are right (or merely entertain notions of maths) - you must not be wrong about the nature of the universe. It made you. You are not in the universe, but part of it.

When is then not now?

Self- displacement - liberating to someone else especially if you are not yourself.

Don't put your past in front of you.

User directed TV> MY camera, MY POV>

Enjoy Pleasure!

President incorporated: a corporation is a "body" a person and acts as one. Why can't a hundred citizens, form a corp and run as ONE individual?

And you thought insanity was crazy!

It's easy to like people you don't know. Hence the famous.
If you were famous, hardly anyone would know you.
If you were likable and famous who could find out?

What others think of me -- that is none of my business.
What I think of others is theirs

What world-view have you adopted, developed, accepted or even promoted?
WHY?

If there's one thing I can't tell you, I have know idea what it is.

You look like I love you.

The odds are that the odds are better that you think. More odds:

Do not tap on glass!
To break it, you must maximize force to the smallest possible area!

_____________________
Time lapse 1 year to in each five feet I move as I cross a 40 foot room.
Try to get back to position as much as possible over the eight years it will take.
If you can bee on mark for 20% of the time, this will be revealed:

We are ghosts. We do not retain matter. We are composed of organic molecules, which over eight years or so, shed and renew completely. We are not concrete. We are just good at maintaining the patterns of our selves, through life. The "Max" that began the eight year journey across the room is the not, atomically, the "Max that arrived. Anatomically, he is Max.
He maintained continuity of consciousness, because his brain constantly renewed itself.

His cells patterns and behaviors were preserved, but each and every element within them is "new parts". Kinda like if you had a car and over the years exchanged every single part for a new one until after eight years none of the original "car" is extant. But there it is...your car.
It's new car but it is the same car.

So the time lapse imagery would reveal a ghostly journey as new molecules take the places of others. We cannot visualize this fact easily because our narrow perception of time and thin memories.

To a relative observer who is "moving" a factor slower than you (and therefore also experiencing consciousness with greater temporal girth) you may appear less dense. That's because compared to our bodies, space is vast. Space is time and we occupy little of that too.

The universe is not many particles jostling about. The universe (the temperature of the universe reveals the on average most atoms don't appear to be moving much) is just one particle moving at the speed on NOW. One particle Not a type or class of particle .ONE SINGLE PARTICLE..THING...EVENT...LOCATION...Is-ness bit. One BIT.

To us the things that seem the most dense, seem that way because the BIT spends more time there. The liquids and gasses we can navigate through - the BIT...

What? This is getting very silly.

...Yeah, and I think that things don't just LOOK smaller the further away they are. They actually ARE smaller.

___________________________________________________

Ok everybody here on Lunesta raise your hand. Nobody? All sleeping?

Ok everybody not willing to admit something, raise your hands.

don't be somebody else. be your self - just make sure you are are not behaving in ways that are the not somebody else.

cover for me

Shedding of atoms and cells timelapse ghost effect TIMELAPSE (above)

Speed of thought defines perception of passage of time. i KNOW BECAUSE OF MY BIKE ACCIDENT.

The universe is one particle moving at the speed of now,

"aliens" as time travelers. HOW COME THEY LOOK SO MUCH LIKE US? They ARE us. From many possible futures. Ain't no way a being from a completely different system, gonna have hands, feet, face...probably wouldn't even be carbon based! Or even on the same scale!


balder dash show - whats the difference

genesis a book about creation myths

Comic about comic.

i know what
LOOP LIVWE TGEATRE
WITH CPPENS WHEN YOU EL DIE.
i can only not tell you the secret because you cannot know...yet.

i dont know half of you
half as much as i would like
and i like less than half you
half as much as you deserve. - LOTR? or screenwriters?

ravel unrave inter exercourse important exportant. words without positive

tom's of maine who the fuck is tom? just some dude tinkering with baking soda?

ebarter.com

testing the pad
a cat named dander
packaging "Cashews" instead of peanuts. gourmet packaging anti breakage. bubble wrap each peanut and then put those in a package. fuck it - package each and every molecule. make it safe
for the consumer. "if this molecular seal is broken, please discard"


scratch and sniff ANYTHING. i HAVE A SCRATCH and sniff yearbook! My girlfried DID smell like that. Unfortunately so did our Chorale instructor. Scratch his face.

WHATS THE DIFF? lunesta or neulasta

make fun of him in front of his back

here's what i've noticed about a thing i find interesting:
if it weren't for observation we wouldn't notice anything

worry of nothing be sorry of naught

That notion/assumption is bizarre, unfounded and implies some kind of conspirancy to undermine you, is at work.
I have noticed this view of the world pervades your thinking across many realms

conversation about information seeking and time it takes to "know"something
or appear to know something.

will free will in dreams

filtering information to prevent "madness" crazy as paradigm of not being able to "deal with" knowing the ineffable vs. enlightenment

Ashbar Kucha and the hidden painting.

Terri(y) Nolan and the coral urine.